This is it. This is life. Soaking in a beautiful moment where I was completely present. Awwww, it’s like Calgon took me away. Nobody else needed me at that very moment. Undivided attention, how I love thee! My husband was putting our daughter down for a nap and I was with our son, Isaiah. I was on the floor, on my knees right up against the bed. He was sitting on the edge of the bed resting against my torso, nestled right into me. He was happy as could be playing with the drawstring on my pants. He was so content, waving that drawstring around. He’d put it in his mouth, coo, smile, coo some more, thenrepeat. Lord, give me such contentment in the simple things! When we pay attention, we can learn so much from children, can’t we? No wonder Jesus says to be like a child.
If you’ve had a chunky baby, like ours, you know what their marshmallow arms feel like. It doesn’t feel like there could possibly be any muscle or bones in there. Those arms arefull of squishy goodness. I got to have those marshmallow arms hanging on me. About every 10 seconds Isaiah would take a break, sit totally still and rest his head on my chest. The kind of resting that if I moved, he’d topple off the bed. He would just melt right into me. Love the trust our children have with us. It’s so genuine, so pure. It reminds me of the trust that is available to us from our Heavenly Father. He is worthy of all trust. I know the days of Isaiah resting on my chest will be gone so much faster than I’m ready for. What a wonderful moment to be present and not do things like try to read emails, text anyone, be tempted to leave and sweep the floor or anything else. To relish in moments like this is to live life. What a gift to simply enjoy. That’s it. The good in life. Ordinary moments with extraordinary heart. I’ll take it! This mama is grateful. What moments have you savored lately?
To our sweet baby girl, you are 9 months tomorrow. God has made His love more real through you. I’ve experienced Him through loving you. How can God love you more than I do? It’s almost impossible to fathom. Not only has He given us Jesus but, He gives this world His children everyday. If that is not the fullest testimony of love, I don’t know what is. He gave us you and we couldn’t be more grateful for Him giving you, His daughter, to us. Loving you has also illuminated the depth of which my parents love me. I always knew I was loved but, in loving you, I know how deep that love goes. I know that they gave and continue to give their best for me, as we do for you. Our hearts will weep and be deeply wounded when we fail you. When our sin or selfishness gets in the way of His best, we will crumble. The love we have for you is so more pure than anything else on earth. I believe Him giving the gift of children to show more of Himself. I don’t know how people are able to deny Him after going through a pregnancy, childbirth and caring for a child. In my eyes, there could be no other way to receive the miracle of children than from God. The whole process is without a doubt, miraculous.
Everyone says that having a child is hard work. Everyone jokes about the lack of sleep you’ll be living in. You don’t know what being tired is until you have a newborn. You ate every 2 hours, 24 hours a day for many months. It took you & us quite awhile to get nursing mastered. We had no idea what we were doing at the beginning. We were overwhelmed and utterly exhausted. We had never given so much of ourselves to anyone or anything. Here comes the best part. The return on that investment was better than any return we had ever received. I think they call that a high yield or something in stocks, well then you would be an infinite, unsurpassed yield. The amount of love and joy we have experienced through you cannot be matched. It floods my entire body, every time I look at you. I have read that when a mother gazes at her child that her brain changes physiologically and this makes sense to me. This is something supernatural and fabricated by the Creator. There is absolutely no other explanation. There can be true joy in serving others and I have seen this in serving and caring for you. I have struggled in other relationships with joyful love being circumstantial. My hope is that in loving you so purely that it will help me love others more purely.
Children are without question one of the best gifts God gives. Children are a manifestation of God. The bible says that children are a blessing.
The word “blessing,” has lost some of it’s meaning due to it’s overuse. I don’t think there is a word to accurately encompass the true meaning of how good children are. I pray that you one day receive the gift of children. Seeing you become a mother would be another one of life’s best gifts. God has given us an insight to His love that I do not believe we could internalize without being parents. You are not even 1 year of age and God has already used you tremendously.